Thursday, September 17, 2009

Kind of messed up...

Sorry guys if you haven't heard from me in a couple of days but I am getting hit REALLY hard right now :(

First my dad who may have as little as 5 years left (or as long as 25!!0, they are talking about Monoclonic Lemphocytoma Lekaemia or something like that. I can say it in Greek but this is the closest translation I can get.

Then my boys aren't adjusting to pre-school, and I know, I know, it's only their 5th day but Cody had a *MAJOR* meltdown yesterday (wanting mommy) and John bit a classmate AND his teacher and peed on himself twice... and today I confronted a VERY freaked out teacher who called the principal as well... Things like "they are not ready for school" were being said... When I told George we had a *major* fight... apparently my "coddling" of the boys is to blame for all this :( (don't get me started, I know it already :()

Then I went for a hair cut and basically she chopped ALL my hair off. I look like a recruit... I look TERRIBLE and not even remotely cute. I look like a MAN.
I know it's only hair and it's silly compared to everything else but it has really brought me down.

Then the show is coming up and apparently another class has been booked and I didn't know about it and now I must find a way to leave the boys for 10 days and there is nobody to take care of them for that long. There is just no way... 7 days was a stretch as it was :(

And this week, with only 3 actual weeks to go before I leave, I worked zero hours! I spent those days between taking the boys to school, running a few errands, then getting calls to go get them because they want to go home :( and of course, therapy, let's not forget that... so basically, I only get maybe 2 hrs per day free in which I need to cook, clean and presumably, sculpt.

I am THIS close to calling it a day... is it even worth it? Seriously? I decided I am not doing the June show in 2010. There is a very high chance it falls on the weekend of the boys' graduation/end of year ceremony (yes here in Greece, we get diplomas for every school year we complete and there is a big ceremony and the kids dance in costumes and put up a small play etc etc).

Oh! And did I mention I AM SICK!? Of course it had to happen now.. because, seriously, any other time it would be too bloody easy... ha! So I feel physically shattered and emotionally I am a mess. I can't stop crying... it's been a bad week...

So if you haven't heard from me, I am sorry. I will get back to you.. I am having a very rough time right now and it doesn't happen to me often, but this time I can't see the light :( there is no light!

Please pray that the boys' teacher will calm down and won't give up on my kids... and that my dad will be alright... and that this virus goes away... and that I will be able to sculpt so fast, your head will spin...
I'm sorry this is not a cheery post but I am really struggling right now...
Thanks for listening people...


Anonymous said...

I am so sorry, sweetie. I can feel your pain and frusteration from here and I know you are overwhelmed. I cannot say I know how you exactly feel because everyone's situation is different. But just know soon this all will pass. Please if you ever need to talk I am always here. I have 4 boys so I can relate to kiddlet problems. Hugs to you and your Father.

OOAK babies by Mina said...

Oh hun, what a week! I'm so sorry to hear about your dad, and all your other troubles.
I can only hope that that next week will be smoother sailing.
You're in my prayers.
(and BTW, I would have bawled my eyes out if they cut my hair without asking)

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