I am editing my post because as a friend said, a certain someone might read it and this will cause me more trouble. The post has done it's job, I've gotten my thoughts and my troubles out there and I feel better!
Thanks to those who mailed me and stood by me. I've gotten it off my chest, I feel a tad better and I say, let's just get through the Holidays and as they say in Greece, God is gracious, He won't abandon me (I know that already!).
Hugs to all