Two years..

Today marks two years since my dad passed away. It is a very difficult and emotional day for me.

Daddy, I miss you... I wish you were here. I wish I had the guts to go through with the divorce while you were still alive. I did this all on my own and it is HARD daddy. So very hard. Some days I don't know where our next meal is coming from... but I am working on it dad, one day at a time. I can feel you helping me even from Heaven, clearing my mind when I have dark thoughts, when I had a difficult day.

I miss you SO much but I know you are smiling down at us from up there.
I know you are proud of me for going through this, I know you saw and heard things happening even if I was trying to sweep it under the rug and I know you guided me when I needed you.
I just wish I could talk to you one more time, for five minutes even... The boys miss you too.

I love you daddy... Rest in peace.

About your concerns

My dear friends,
I am aware that a lot has been said/speculated lately about me.

I am here to assure you I have NOT taken anyone's money and not sent out their product. EVER!!!
Have things been delayed? Yes and I can't thank you enough for your understanding and patience. But I have NEVER taken anyone's money without getting them what they paid for.

Cinthya, I received your e-mail this morning. This is the first e-mail I get from you and I assure you I will e-mail you back and we will resolve this. To the best of my memory this was a layaway and he is not fully paid, you said some big expenses and couldn't finish paying for him. As I said, I apologize if my memory fails me, in any case you are not losing money, please do not worry, I am more than happy to resolve this with you.

I am going through one of the toughest periods of my life. I am now a single mom of two with the dolls being my only income, with no family and no support. I am struggling but fighting through this. I sincerely apologize if I caused aggravation or worry, but I AM working things out for all.

I thank you kindly for your continued support and understanding,
Sincerely,
Tina

 

Freyas have now been shipped!!

Hey girls,
Just a quick note to let you know I have finished shipping your Freyas, I have everybody's tracking number. I will sit down and send them to you tomorrow (Monday).
Thank you kindly for your patience!
Hugs
Tina

Last Freya in stock!

My last Freya kit, ready to ship!! 50 Euros shipped!

Almost done with packing and shipping Freyas :) Yay!!


 

It was my nameday, here is a gift for you!!

On the 15th August, it was my name day. I didn't feel too good on that day because 2 years ago, on the 15th I took my dad to the hospital only to die 11 days later :(
I wanted to give you girls a gift but I felt so "blah" I didn't have the strength lol.

But I am feeling better today so here is my name day gift to you:
My Repair Guide from 50 Euro to 35 Euro. Discount valid for a few days only!!

 

Thank you!!
Tina

Oreo is three weeks old!!

 

Isn't he handsome?

Freya super low price *IN STOCK*

ONLY TWO LEFT!!!


I have 15 Freya kits in stock, no waiting, ready to ship this coming week made in German vinyl, makes a newborn sized baby, full arms and legs!

50 Euros shipped only! Click here to buy yours!!

 

I am a mom (again!)

No, no, I am not pregnant or adopting... But I did bring a new baby home.
For years I had worked for ASPCA but my career came to a halt because George was not really a pet person.

So when my friend mailed me begging for help for 3 tiny kittens, only hours old, I thought about it long and hard. Unfortunately, by the time we said yes, we can commit, the two girls had passed on :(
But we saved this little face... his name? Oreo!!

 

He is going to be 3 weeks old on Saturday. When he is hungry he MAKES IT KNOWN!!!
He already purrs :) The boys are SO happy and can't wait until he is older and they get to play with him!!!

 

Welcome to the family Oreo!!

 

Divorce really hurts!

I didn't want to get divorced. I know a lot of young people go into a marriage thinking "if it doesn't work out, I will just get a divorce". Divorce has become so easy for my generation, the stigma eliminated it is almost "cliché" these days.
However I did not want to get divorced. I never thought I would say "my ex-husband"... then again I never thought I would have twins, or that I would have preemies, or that they would have special needs or that I would say "my son is autistic" or that I would bury my dad so young... and it goes on and on.

I am the kind of person that tries to find a silver lining to everything. I believe in "everything happens for a reason" and "what did I just learn from this?". Truth is, sometimes things just happen because life isn't fair or pretty or easy... sometimes sh!tty things happen to awesome people for NO reason at all and that hurts.

I realize that I worked very hard for my marriage. There isn't anything I could have done more or differently because I gave 110% and stayed...and stayed and stayed until it was clear that I would die, maybe not physically (although nobody could guarantee that as things were becoming physically dangerous too) but certainly psychologically. Not only that, but I owed it to my children! They deserve happiness, they deserve freedom they deserve to breathe!! They deserve to NOT be afraid!

I am sad this happened, I am angry. I see now that he never loved me.. at least not in the conventional sense a normal person perceives love. The actions, the yearning, were just not there. I was "his", an object, I served a purpose and that hurts because I still love him to this day.
It is ok to admit it. I love him still... but not him ...I love someone who doesn't exist. The loving images that come to mind is of person that is just not there. He was there more than a decade ago but no more so in essence I am loving a person dead/long gone. I am mourning the death of something or someone. The man who picks up the boys every once in a while, I don't recognize. The cold eyes, the demeanor, who is that man?

Are things easy now? Am I happy?
Yes and no. Some things are easier. Most days I breathe easier. Amazingly I do not miss him! He was so absent from our daily routine that his absence is not felt at all!!
I find happiness in the small moments. When I get a hug or a kiss from the boys. When I raise my hand to caress them and they don't put up their hands thinking they will get hit.
There is happiness here... there is also a lot of worrying. Will I pay my rent this month? Will I have enough money to take them out for an outing? Financially things are hard but not because he was contributing. I need to get back to regular working on my dolls. It has almost been two months since I left and for that first month I found it hard to get out of bed. Things did not go as planned, I did not have the support I thought I would... but month two is better. Not perfect, but better.

Immediately after the court my lawyer kept telling me "You are free, do you realize that?". I felt anything but... I was SO worried about how I was going to pull this off, for a moment I wanted to run back, not to him, but to the familiar routine, the familiar situation.
It was hard not to. I stuck it out. My boys lashed out, I got hit, they told me terrible things. "I was better off with dad" when I disciplined them was heard often in that first month.
I knew it was only a reaction, I knew they didn't mean it, like an animal that is hurting and bites any hand, even a helping one... but it still hurt to hear it.

We are better now. We have found a new rhythm, a new routine. We are a team... we were always a team.

I did not want to get divorced and in a sense I do not feel I got divorced. I feel as though the person I married died because the man I divorced, had nothing to do with the man I feel in love with.
But here I am now... 35, mom of two, single parent. I want to believe in better days, in days when there will be more happy moments than bad ones... or even when I am able to deal with the bad moments a lot better and look at the bigger picture. All I pray for now is for my boys to grow up into good, honest men.

Please don't mail me on Facebook

Hi girls,
I still haven't sorted out my FB login so please don't mail me on FB. I can't read it!!
I will be happy to answer you if you e-mail me directly to tina@tinakewy.com.

Every time I post on my blog it automatically posts on FB, I assure you I am not ignoring anyone. Even though it seems like I am posting, in fact I am not at least not directly.

Thank you kindly!
Tina

Baby Ethan

Isn't he the cutest?? He is 13" long. I wonder if there is a mommy out there for him?
Full arms, 3/4 legs, cuddly body, super amazing limbs!

I would like 320 Euros for him, this includes shipping!!
Thank you!!

The Ultimate Polymer Clay Repair Guide

(This is a scheduled post, I will be visiting my aunt until Monday morning, so if you want to buy this guide, I won't be able to e-mail you until then)

 

It has happened to all of us: you've spent hours, days, even weeks sculpting that perfect little baby and it comes out of the oven cracked to bits!! All your hard work, gone!!

Or, you sell an OOAK and you get an e-mail from the customer that it arrived broken.

For me, repairing a polymer clay sculpt is an important skill. I do not like throwing away anything I have sculpted so if I can modify it or completely restore it, I am happy!!

 

With this downloadable guide you too will be able to repair your sculpts made from plastic based polymer clay (i.e. Prosculpt or Living Doll - not Cernit or Modelene, sorry), and salvage your hard work!!

 

This guide includes a mini ear tutorial, feature modification (in this case, the nose) and c-crack (moonie) correction.

You will receive your copy via e-mail within 48 hrs of completing check out (I will be away until Monday the 29th)

 

 

Limb sets for sale

I have 11 sets of limbs from the Gus/Ellis sculpts.
These include the connectors and elastic and instructions on how to attach them to a cloth body, which is dead easy!
They are very detailed limbs made in German vinyl.

Asking 40 Euros shipped registered mail to Europe and 43 Euros shipped registered to the rest of the world.
I also have 4 sets of arms (again connectors and elastic included) for 22 Euros and 24 Euros respectively.
These FULL limbs would fit any 14-15" head (circumference).

Set of limbs (includes connectors and elastic)

(PayPal won't allow me to calculate shipping per customer, so if you are in the USA, I will invoice you for the additional 3 Euros after you complete checkout)

Set of Arms (includes connectors and elastic)

 




 

Vinyl Dolls for sale

One good thing about cleaning out your house and moving is you find things ;)

I've had these in storage for the last, oh, ten years or so? I will not do anything with them, so here you go. Some are very hard to find. I am sure you talented girls you can do something with them.

** They are all sold AS IS. Some just need cleaning, some had things like, eyes changed or wigs changed or blushed. So, they are sold as is, in need of TLC **

(click pics to enlarge)

Lee Middleton Heads. From top left the first one is Baby Boo (69/1000 if I am not mistaken), then there is a bigger Reva one, a Sherry Housley one, a sleeping Reva, another Helland, I think the twin of Baby Boo (28 of 1500). Bottom row, I think this was once Lions, Tigers and Bears. Another bigger/older Helland and a Reva one. The last Reva in the bottom line has had his eyes changed and I cut the head to do it, but it has been reglued, will be totally be hidden with a wig.

Boo, Reva girl, Housley girl

 

Housley girl, Reva sleeper, Helland baby

 

 

Another Reva sleeper, Helland older baby girl, Reva baby

 

Cathariena Tennusen Lillian for Zapf. I had removed her wig and glued on some mohair. You can see some of the mohair still stuck to her head but can be sanded off easily.

 

 

I don't know how but Lillian got these marks on both her legs and arms. I have NOT tried to removed them, don't know what they are, don't know IF they can be removed (make her an A/A baby if not?). Her head does not have any marks from what I can see. Sold as is!

 

 

 

Three Spanish Berenguer heads. One is Asian, nose opened, a tuff of hair rooted at the front, I have kept the neck as you can see so it can go to a cloth body.

 

 

Cititoy baby about 15" long? Eyes have been changed, the eye missing is actually IN the head. Needs a good cleaning.

 

 

Apple Valley Joanna, makes a LARGE baby :)

 

 

 

This is a Fayzan Spanos "Ships Ahoy". She makes a 30" toddler if I remember correctly. Except she is missing her wig and lashes, there is nothing wrong with her as far as I can see, other than needing a good wash.

 

 

Two sets of Reva limbs for Lee Middleton, one set of arms, Baby Boo's arms and legs cut down because they were at a weird angle and I wanted to use a cloth body with a skeleton for posability. Can still be attached to cloth body if you drill holes around them (see photo below) and sew them on. I have done it many times. Like this :

 

 

Apple Valley limbs, Reva Chubby limbs and cut down (and holes drilled already) legs and ONE arm of bigger Reva baby.

 

 

Reva chubby arm has this mark on it, not sure what it is, have not tried to clean it. The other limbs are fine, just need cleaning.

 

 

 

Reva newer limbs, nothing wrong with them.

 

I am asking for everything, sold as a package deal, $600 SHIPPED (very big heavy box).

You get:

11 Heads

4 full dolls (two of which are hard to find and limited edition, albeit in need of TLC)

7 full sets of limbs

and some parts :)

 

Now on eBay!! Reserve is $500

 

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=300937862635

 

New Babies for Sale!! Super low prices!

I have finally started setting up my studio in the new apartment. Looks like I will continue sleeping on the couch lol :) But it's ok. I would rather sculpt than sleep ;)

I have some super deals for you today. Two sets of babies for sale in amazingly low prices!!
Baby Boy, OOAK, 2013, full arms and 3/4 legs, painted light brown hair, polymer clay. About 8" tall, cloth body filled with glass micro-beads, very cuddly. Comes in outfit shown (plus a matching hat not shown).

Baby girl, polymer clay OOAK, 2013, non-jointed, anatomically correct, painted brown hair. Comes in flower as shown, about 5" tall.

Baby Girl, 2013, polymer clay OOAK, about 5" tall, 5 way jointed (head, shoulders, hips), anatomically correct girl, painted light brown hair. Comes dressed in cloth diaper and dress as shown.

Kittaby, polymer clay OOAK, end of 2012, 5" tall, non jointed, anatomically correct boy. Rabbit fur hair and back side pelt, tiny tail. Kittabies are half-babies, half-kittens so he is a fantasy creature. About 5" tall.

Resin baby boy, cloth body, dark brown mohair (glued on). Comes dressed as shown. 6" tall.

And now, for the amazing prices!!!
Babies are sold as shown, I cannot separate them but for that price, you are getting an awesome deal.
Jointed baby girl, one piece baby girl and Kittaby for 320 Euros shipped (tracking included).

And, resin baby plus 8" OOAK, fully dressed for 230 Euros shipped!!